last Friday, my friends and i watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2. it was pretty awesome. the lines were well written. it was fit for the ending of one of the most amazing ages. at the end of the movie, i felt like crying. but i stopped the waterworks from starting coz i know that once it starts, it's hard to end. the next day, i watched some BTS clips of the deathly hallows. the director's line had me crying at the end of the clip. he said: we always knew we were coming back, and this time we knew we weren't. i cried partly because, my childhood movie series finally came to an end. but mostly because it was fit for me. i'm graduating from high school this school year and from my past blog i said i'm not yet ready to move on, to go on with my life and leave home. i'm not really good at goodbyes. not goodbyes after a family gathering or after a day-out with friends but goodbyes that mean not seeing each other for quite a long time; goodbyes that mean see you on the flip side; goodbyes that mean "hey, i won't be able to be there for you anymore.". i hate those goodbyes.
about 5 years ago, i faced the same kind of goodbyes. i got depressed. i always cried. i was convinced that i'm all alone in this world of dismay. sometimes, i thought of killing myself. but after some time, i realized it was not worth it. i'm afraid that i'll face the same kind of depression after high school., maybe even worse. i mean, it was just after 6th grade when i got depressed. i still have friends at school. i still go to the same school. but after high school, i'll face a different world. my friends wouldn't be there anymore. they wouldn't be there to encourage me; they wouldn't be there to tell me everything will be all right; they wouldn't be there to make me laugh when i'm blue. i will be -this time- all alone. that really scares me. everything i knew will finally come to an end. just like Harry Potter. we wouldn't be coming back. we are getting closer to never doing what we've grown used to doing. it wouldn't be the same anymore.
if the Harry Potter age says: We destroyed the stone, found the chamber, freed the prisoner, won the tournament, helped the order, knew who the prince was, and saw the demon die... This is the Harry Potter age! Peace, Love, Potter. we say: we conquered our fear of the next level, got through NAT, gave the Seniors a memorable prom, and are living the most out of everyday. this is the Spartans age... Peace, Love, Spartans.
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