it was one rainy Sunday night. Raya and I were demurely walking back to the Gazebo to get some water when she asked me the question most people ask me nowadays.
Raya: excited ka na mag-college?
i smiled, shook my head, then replied: ganun siguro kapag sa iisang school ka lang lumaki.
Raya: siguro nga.
that had me sighing. i mean, it's not like i've never imagined being in college before. it's just that i never thought it would be so soon. i'm not yet ready to leave home and i'm not sure if i can be ready in just nine months.
i've never had a life outside JASMS. a passel of people can testify to that. my classmates usually tell me: binubulok ka na dito baka pati sa college gusto mo dito ka na rin. mostly, i take it as a joke but every so often, those words had me thinking. what am i gonna do once i graduate? what will happen to me?
where will i go? I'M SCARED.
i don't know what to do, what i'll do or what will happen to me. all i know is, i'm gonna enter a new field, face new battles, and meet new warriors. but no matter what happens to me - if i fail to win those battles, if it so happens that those warriors become my enemies - one thing will always be clear and true: i will forever be a JASMITE. and a JASMITE knows how to fight. a JASMITE will somehow find solutions to problems. A JASMITE WILL NEVER GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT LIFE THROWS AT HIM.
we always say bad stuffs about our school (mostly about the facilities), even if it's just a joke, the intention is clear. what we don't realize is, the school we're criticizing, the school we think is "such a loser", when the time comes, we'll miss it. we'll wish we were back there, sitting inside the classroom, listening to T. Otchie or Sir Manrique, or T. Teena, or Sir Giron or Miss Mo. i know i will. even if i still have a few more months to enjoy JASMS, i'm already missing it.
leaving home will probably the hardest thing i'll ever do in my life. but i have to do it. i'm not doing it empty handed anyways. i have with me the things JASMS has taught and gave me and i will forever be grateful for that. i will never forget my home... and my homies. =)))))))))) JASMS will forever be in my heart.
